Reflections on 2008

As I sit here at work on the last day of the year, I am prompted to reflect on this year. What has happened this year to me personally that is of any significance? What has happened in our nation and world?

Well, we have elected our first black President. Although I was not an Obama supporter, he is, or at least will be as of January 20th, our President and I will support him in any way that I can. We continue to be involved in Iraq and who knows how long that will go on. I do not profess to understand any of what is going on in that regard so cannot comment on the situation.

Personally, as I have documented on this blog, it is the desire of my heart to adopt a child. Yet another year has passed without any progress towards said adoption as there are still other areas of my life that need attention first.

Other areas of my life are documented here on my blog so I do not need to go back over my work situation - it is too draining to even think of typing it all out yet again.

As 2008 draws to a close, I have but one thought on my mind for 2009. It is the same thought that was on my mind one year ago.... when will I be a mother?

Wishing everyone a joyous New Year!! Please be careful tonight if you are going to be out and about.

Merry Christmas

Wishing everyone a very joyous holiday.

May we never forget...

"An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. But the angel said to them, 'Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger.' Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying:
Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace to men on whom his favor rests. "

Luke 2:9-14

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Scroll to the bottom and leave a gift under my "Christmas tree"!!

This is a cute little toy that I posted on another site I have last year and just did it again this year.

Watch this!

This was an elf yourself video I made with me and my cats... it was only available until January 15th, unfortunately!!!

Until next year...

Why do I let things like this bother me?

So today is my day off and I decided to have lunch at Chik Fil*A while I was out running some errands. I get my order (chargrilled chicken club, usually very yummy!!) and go sit down to eat. Since I was there by myself, I had decided to bring my book inside to read while I was eating. As I started to eat, I realized that I had sat right by a big group of young moms and their children. It was then that I overheard the thing that is bothering me. One of the young mothers starts talking about how now that she is married and has children she doesn't feel like her friends who are single understand her anymore so really prefers to hang out with "people of her own kind"... that is, married and with children. She made some, in my opinion, quite disparaging remarks about those who are still single and their attitudes towards those who have children.

Well, this rocked me in a way that I simply cannot explain. Now maybe she was talking about some friends who have treated her horribly since her life has changed in that manner. But when I related what she said to my own life situation it felt like daggers hitting my heart. Here I am, 42 years old and still single. I've met quite a few men in my life but none that ended up being the type I would marry. And I have no idea at this point if I will even marry. But the bigger thing, for me is the fact that I desperately want children. And I have no ill feelings towards those who do have children - I understand it completely changes your life. I want that change in my life. But I am not able to have children, not married, and not financially able to pursue my dream right now - adoption.

So here I sit with an aching heart, yet again, and it is the holiday season - the time when my heart aches the most. I despise waking up alone on Christmas morning but it's what I have to do for now.

Please excuse this completely self pitying sounding post.... I had to get it off my chest.