Too funny!!!

And this is the real Gov. Palin on SNL!! I wish I had watched the show, but I hardly ever do anymore.

Today

So today is my birthday. And I'm not looking for birthday greetings from anyone... :).

I am just reflecting on the fact that I am officially another year older, another year past the 40 mark, and have no idea at this point if I will ever be a Mom. I am happy for my cousin who had her second little girl in August, I am happy for another cousin (sister of the first one) who is expecting her 3rd boy in January, but I wish something like that was happening for me.

Oh, and I am excited for Shannon, who just received her referral very unexpectedly in the middle of the month, congratulations again!!

I hope that the news is much better by this time next year!!

Trip to NJ & NYC

My last post mentioned that I was traveling. I've been back home since Sept. 27th, very very very late that night. I was sooo exhausted!! 2 weeks in a hotel is just 2 weeks too much... unless of course you are relaxing in the Carribean somewhere! This was a business trip so all expenses were paid for, aside from my side trip to Manhattan. I got pretty tired of eating out, to say the least! I was so happy when my sister invited me over for dinner the first full day I was home. She made rotisserie chicken (she owns a rotisserie), macaroni & cheese casserole, and steamed broccoli. It was the best meal I'd had in weeks!!

Anyway, here are some photos from the trip.

Ciao Bella Gelato Cafe was the cutest little cafe right around the corner from my hotel. I stayed in Tenafly, NJ, a very picturesque little village in NJ. I ate at this place a number of times - delicious paninis and crepes!! And their gelato milkshake was very good as well.

This was my first view of the NYC skyline. This picture was taken from the window of the # 166 bus!! The bus picked us up right in front of the hotel and dropped us off at the Port Authority Terminal on 42nd St.

NYPD welcomes you to Times Square!!

We had dinner here. It was very crowded and very loud!!

This ad was actually on the outside of Toys be Us in Times Square. And I do heart Ugly Betty!! This Toys be Us was quite amazing... there was a 4 story ferris wheel inside the store and the cars each represent a child's favorite toy.

Radio City Music Hall!! I didn't go inside. My AD's aunt was actually a Rockette for 14 years!!

It really is the world's largest store, at least in my opinion!! 9 floors and a cellar. They had their Christmas floor in the works... on the 9th floor. The 7th floor is the children's clothing and there is a full service McDonald's on that floor!! We ate at a very neat place in the cellar, and I had the best NY cheesecake for dessert.

Me inside Macy's... the home furnishings floor.

Rockefeller Center. And I got really dizzy leaning way back and looking up to take this shot!!

Pretty self explanatory... this is where the famous tree is placed every year!!

NBC News studio... where they film the Today Show every morning. See the marquee? We saw those all over Times Square!

The weekend in NYC was great, but very very tiring!! I don't think I have ever walked so much in my entire life. I have great respect for the people who live there and have to walk everywhere just because of the sheer volume of traffic and the cost to keep a car in the city.

Traveling

So I'm leaving today... in fact my flight leaves in a little over 2 and a half hours. And I'm still at home!! I'm getting ready to head to my sister's house where I'm leaving my car while I'm gone. When I fly back home in 2 weeks, my flight doesn't land until after 10:30 at night so I'm going to have them leave my car at the arrivals parking lot and call me on my cell to tell me where I can find it.

So it's off to 2 weeks of training for work... better be interesting!!!! Next weekend will be time in New York City with my best friend, her husband, and daughter.

See you when I get back!!

Best Cities for Singles?

I saw a link on Yahoo that sounded interesting so I clicked on it. Forbes Magazine has done one of their polls ending with a ranked listing of the top 40 cities for singles. Here are the results:

1. Atlanta
2. San Francisco
3. Dallas
4. Minneapolis
5. Washington, D.C.
6. Seattle
7. Boston
8. New York City
9. Orlando
10. Phoenix
11. Chicago
12. Denver - Aurora
13. Miami
14. Austin
15. San Antonio
16. Los Angeles
17. Houston
18. Charlotte
19. San Diego
20. St. Louis
21. Columbus
22. Philadelphia
23. Tampa - St. Petersburg
24. Las Vegas
25. Baltimore
26. Virginia Beach - Norfolk?
27. Detroit
28. Pittsburgh
29. Portland
30. Buffalo
31. Milwaukee
32. Sacramento
33. Cincinnati
34. Memphis
35. Providence
36. Kansas City
37. Indianapolis
38. Cleveland
39. Salt Lake City
40. Jacksonville

This was very interesting to me, indeed. I think this is one of the first times I have seen my area listed on a poll like this but I just have one question. If it is ranked 26th on the list of the best cities for singles, then why don't I realize that?

This was actually more of a good laugh to me than anything else. I haven't posted in a while so I figured better this than nothing!!

Life Goes On

Life does go on. Maybe not in the direction I wanted it to at this point but it's not like I can stop it. So I make sure I am taking care of what I need to take care of - housework, laundry, etc. Most of the time it feels like I am moving about in a hypnotic state and just don't care about it. I feel like I do that at work too. This will be a different week, though, because the regional director and I are swapping places starting this week. She will be the acting director at the center where I've worked for almost a year and I will be the director at another of our centers. It's not much farther away for me as far as driving goes. We shall see how it goes.

Short post, I know, but there really isn't much going on.

Heartaches

How do I explain this?? My heart is aching tonight... I want to be a mother more than I can even express with words. I have this overwhelming feeling that I am SUPPOSED to be a mother. I made the unwise decision to visit a few adoption blogs and am sitting here with tears streaming down my face.... and my heart is crying out to God to make the aching go away...

New Look

So I decided that my blog needed a facelift. I tried several different layouts but most of them made it impossible to read my posts and since posting is what a blog is all about they just didn't work!! Let me know what you think of the new look!!

I just realized that the last time I talked about my new job I said that I was going to be Assistant Director of Education at my company. Well.... due to some staffing changes just as I was coming on board in a full time role, I was actually offered and accepted the position of Center Director. It's a big job, lots of responsibilities and a little scary to think of it all. But I am taking it one day at a time and trusting that the Lord dropped this in my lap for a reason. I still miss teaching in the classroom but this is where I am supposed to be right now.

Nothing new on the adoption front. I sometimes think I gave this blog the wrong name... maybe it should have been Will I Ever Be a Mom?

23 Years Ago Today...

Wow, how fast time flies. It just hit me that 23 years ago today was my Senior Prom. So I looked through the photo album my Mom made me a few years ago and found a pic of that day. It's the only one I have, unfortunately. About 8 years ago or so my hot water heater burst in the place where I was living and it ran all day while I was gone, ruining the boxes I had stored in the room with it. Along with that was a box that contained photo albums and lots and lots of memories.

But here is the pic of my senior prom. Believe it or not, this style of gown was the way to go back then!! My hair looks so big!! I styled it myself, there was no going to get it done back then. My date was my boyfriend of the time. And I'm the one who drove that night!!!

Today...

So today was my last day at my full time job. It was kind of a low key day. The people who were nicest were very happy for me. Others were the same. Oh well... I am moving on.

I am praying and thinking about a new opportunity that has landed in my lap. It's with the same place that just promoted me... they are looking at an even higher position for me due to some recent personnel changes. They have the confidence in me, I just need to find the confidence in myself. I'll know more and most likely have a decision by mid next week.